Jasm À Manille

Dance in the rain

2012-02-14T21:12:00.001+08:00

I shouldn't dwell too much on the painful things. There are so many people who value me more than you do. I realize that now. I know I haven't been trying to be okay hard enough. I didn't want to. I was still somehow hoping things would get better. But now, I don't think that's possible. Thank you for making me see that today.

Since you like GIFs, I made one, too. Cerbas drew hearts on the dorsum of our hands. There was a crack drawn on mine but he covered it up with red marker although you can still see a mark. "Normal naman 'yan, eh!" And I can try to mask it, but it'll be of no use. I won't lie to myself. I won't lie to you. It hurts like fuck.

Poorly made but I don't really care. Hoho

I talked to a close friend of mine last night. The one I spent last year's Valentine's day with. Just our usual nonsensical conversation equipped with life lessons, i.e. Star Wars is awesome. Lol. Missed. Thank you, shiny siopao man. I will forever remember your kind words. *stares*

Doc Fidel calls me Tachycardia now. God, so embarrassing. "Tachycardia, magpacheck-up ka, ha?" Thank you, thank you.

Roses, chocolates and heartbreaks. Happy Valentine's Day.

I'm gonna dance in the rain. I'm gonna dance wildly (and I'll make you a fuckin' GIF while I'm at it)

Terrified

2012-02-13T00:10:00.001+08:00

And I don't know what exactly happened to me during that seminar. I just lost it. Maybe it's the stress? The coffee? Doubt it. Everything just seemed to fall on me these past few days. I just want to drop everything. And lie down. Somewhere. Sleep. Where you can't haunt my dreams anymore. I was really scared. No. I'm really scared. Yesterday. Today. And tomorrow, I'll still be scared.

My heart was racing more than I could handle. And I shivered even though I did not feel the cold. I just felt terrified. And my imagination ran wild as far as it could, as fast as my heart. Everything I wanted to forget just flashed before me. So I shivered some more. And my heart couldn't take it. And I couldn't hold back the tears. Because it was just so true. It's so ironic I wanted the truth and now I have it. And it hurts too much. So everything just became more final. I don't want this.

I can't stand feeling like I'm not good enough anymore. I'm tired of feeling replaced. I've felt that way ever since I can remember. Why do you think I'm like this in the first place? You think I choose to be reserved? To hide myself when I've got so many things to say? It's painful to speak and have nobody listen. I knew it wouldn't go away easily. So I worked hard. Little by little to change myself. But I didn't expect that it would just be you who would intensify this fucked up fucked up truth. There. I said it.

I can never ever be good enough for anyone. I will always be lacking. Everyone knows that.
I should have listened. From the beginning, I've been struggling but I held on. I'm so stupid. So so stupid. And guess what. You guys were right again. I can't focus. I just can't anymore.

144 beats per minute. Resting tremors.

It's okay to not be okay. We're only human.

I'm not okay. It's too late.

I'm so scared to see you in my dreams. Cause I wouldn't want to wake up anymore.

I'm sorry I hurt you. I'm just stating facts. Things we didn't want to admit. Just the sad sad truth.

She's really beautiful. But she seems so fragile. Just don't hurt her please.
I hope you don't make the same mistake you made with me. Denying what you truly feel just to spare me. I guess maybe you wanted to protect me. There's no need for that anymore. Don't hurt her and maybe then it'll be easier for me to accept this all.

Burnt-out flames

2012-02-11T18:51:00.000+08:00

Tired tired tired tired. Everything wears me out so easily. Draining every bit of myself, I feel I'll be reduced to nothing. And I can keep telling myself I'm overreacting, but that doesn't change how fucked up I feel. And how everything feels all planned out. And how I don't know what to believe in anymore. How I'm always the last to know. At least back then, that someone had the decency to tell me the truth. Maybe it's nothing to you. But it sure as hell bothers me. It always has. Just terribly aggravated a few weeks ago. And finally, pushed me off the edge the other night. Never ever good enough. Never was, never will be.

Weird thing happened. As I was drinking, I noticed a crack at the bottom of my glass that spelled "Lie". Why is the universe mocking me? HAHA.

Thursday night attempt to study for Friday exams. My sister made me coffee that tasted like love. Sweet and strong. I swear, that is the only way I got through without sleep. Although maybe it would have been better if I slept. That way, I wouldn't have found out more than I wanted to know. If the truth hurts people, doesn't lying do that too? Double the pain.

Beautiful song.

I couldn't stand seeing you. Too tempting. To just stay in your arms. And pretend to be fine. And I hate it that she's way prettier than I am. And that I'm more hurt than I am angry. And that it really is over.
These tears are never-ending.

What was true

2012-02-10T06:14:00.000+08:00

Archived from the 14th of January last year, "It's not about lying. It's about not telling the truth." And did you really have to leave out that small bit of detail if you had nothing to hide? I just feel stupid, that's all. That the same things keep happening. Sounds familiar? Your line.

And just in case you're still waiting and wondering, my answer is no. Sure I was hesitant at first. But now, it just seems so wrong if I give a different response.

Last day of exams today. Must be the worst exam week yet. To be distracted in the midst of actually making progress, fucking perfect. It's so difficult to put it all aside for now because it's just so frustrating. And even though I actually succeeded in staying up all night, it would have been more fulfilling if it weren't for my damn curiosity and ever-unfailing wandering thoughts. Strayed too far for my own good. Way too far.

The story of my nameplate. Over and over again. Lol. Only Jervis would understand this.

Now I'm cranky. Great. My eyelids are drooping, nuuuu.

Overexposed sabaw webcam photo at 5am.

icue,zdkmxxijsxmuirivencmixjwnxomskmkdjcfneiwrueciwurmfjdksdkmesoidmfejsdlkjoesjfmdjosldkofi :( :( :( So sad right now. :(

Fuck you.

And my skin, it wondered how

2012-01-31T19:10:00.000+08:00

I couldn't help it. This movie is way too adorable. Most unforgettable scene in the movie! Thomas J, way too cute! Watched this over the sembreak. Sad sad.

The most unbelievable thing happened to me just the other day. It'll take a long time for me to get over this but what the hell. It involves alcohol and a few good friends. HAHAHA. I kid. I don't know what to say anymore. I might give away too much for my own good.

Breakup season. Sad sad. Be happy, my lovely friends! Something better is bound to come. Lalala~

Short entry. Must study now. I keep getting distracted. I just had to. Farewell lala
The Thoughts That Give Me The Creeps♥

And you don't know why, but you're dying to try. Go on and. . .

Ghost of the past

2012-01-17T20:49:00.001+08:00

This is chronic, and I still am recuperating. My blog is so sad. Not me! People keep insisting I'm depressed. Not true. It just so happened that whenever I feel a bit down, I write. As a consequence, the melancholic entries. This is just a phase as January is just a month.

Forgive me for always ranting on about hair. (HAHAHA, ARVIN) But I want Rachel Bilson hair!

Not to mention, I've been considering a pixie cut. Although, I don't have the heart to let go of my long locks. Took too long to grown them.

Sunny of SNSD

Myx VJ Joyce Pring

Beautiful people can pull it off because.. well, because they're beautiful. Hence my doubts. I don't think I'll be able to handle the pressure of having short hair. I cut my hair really short back in second year high school, and I regretted it the moment I got home from the hairdresser. I had braces then and wore glasses. So I kinda reminded myself of P'Nam from the movie Crazy Little Thing Called Love before her so-called evolution. "Nerdy dark-skinned ugly duckling." Nailed it!

Of course, I'm sane enough NOT to post a photo of myself during those dark days of my youth. When you look at it though, I think I loved myself more than I do now. Imperfections and all. I accepted myself more. So I was still as shy as ever. Prolly even more. But I understood myself and I looked after myself then. Whatever. If I looked like that before, then pleeease can I have my own P'Shone, too?! Sweet mother, I would gladly stay in my awkward second year high school stage if I can have that! That girl is way too lucky.

Hahaha fucker. I'm sorry. This is such a random nonsensical blog entry. My mind is mush right now. Took a break from studying Anatomy. Page 146-265 for a 20-item quiz. Great. And then I still have two chapters of Physiology to study. Must definitely pull an all-nighter.

Got a package today. Made my night. Hihi. Ribbons and pearls go so well together.

I set my phone ringtone to City Hunter's OST Sad Run. FG mode, whyyyy. Makes me want to not answer the phone just to finish the song. Lalala~

Piece Peace

2012-01-10T08:41:00.000+08:00

I had a whole lot to say last night. A whole blog entry written in my mind. Because I'm certain bottling it all up will just accumulate all these miserable thoughts. It's so sad how far my mind wanders that I expose myself to the worst of my worries. And I still can't seem to put in words any of those. Maybe I'm too lost in thought. Maybe I'm just scared to admit it.

Lalala ~ ~ ~! Pleeeease. I don't want to think of these things anymore. I still have to roll some more to smoothen my edges. And that won't happen if I force myself to fit somewhere I can't. I will be an O. But only if I want to be. And only if I really try. It sucks how it really makes sense. And no one else can understand it. Hoho.

And then it just goes back to it all. When someone put the missing piece on a pedestal and left it there. No, I don't think it should be called that. It sounds more appropriate to be called the spare piece, because that's what it really was, wasn't it?

Fingers are slipping and I feel myself falling.

Does anyone knows what happens on the 24th of May, 2013? Just thank you, you big bāozi.

2012

2012-01-01T12:15:00.002+08:00

BOHOL = PARADISE. I'm really not the type to share stories. So I'll just share photos!
See album. HAHAHA. Part I. And II.

2012. I don't make resolutions, but I think this video says it all.

I'll make this year count. That, I promise.

Stop over analyzing. Life is simple.

Blue blue heartaches

2011-12-24T03:47:00.000+08:00

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart. But the very next day, you gave it away.

Cliche, I know.

No explanations. No goodbyes. Gone just like that. How do you expect me to just move on? If I could just hate you.. It's so unpleasant missing you even though you were never really there for long. Even though I know I really shouldn't.

Twenty four. Twenty five. Twenty six. Twenty seven. Twenty eight.

I still can't feel Christmas. And it's already the 24th. The world is so different and so complicated now. I wish I could just be a kid again taking pleasure in the simplest of things. I am, however, looking forward to exchanging gifts. After all, I did put a lot of effort this year compared to the previous years. And I did sacrifice my Christmas money just to get everyone decent gifts. So I may be broke now, but it'll be rewarding seeing sincerely thankful faces. Maybe then, I'll really get into the Christmas spirit.

Best Christmas gift ever: VACATION. Because we really need it. 26th, please come sooner!

Hope everyone has a happy Christmas!

You'll be doing alright with your Christmas of white. But I'll have a blue blue Christmas. ♥

Prisoner of words left unsaid

2011-12-23T03:53:00.000+08:00

A message from boss Cerbas.

Everyone has their own sad stories... The problem with some is, they are afraid to continue their stories in hope to reach a happy ending one day... Di ba Miggy, Pio, Jasm at Arvin hahaha... Merry Christmas! Mahal namin kayo.

Thursdays are always booze nights. Hence Happy Thursdates. Because I know I will never be alone.

October 2011 // Thursdates plus Jd and Emery

I'm still a little annoyed so kjsbnfjdnzxmjldklos. I just felt the need to write tonight. Maybe tomorrow morning, I'll delete this. Or not. Just to remember how awesome Thursdates are always gonna be despite dnue;icjdmio whatever. Lol. Merry Christmas, my kanto friends! Mahal ko kayo, pangako!

Silvertoes. HAHAHAHAHAH fml.

I think. I really have to start working out again. Zzz. Beach vibes soon! CAN'T WAIT.

Sometimes, I try too hard. HAHAHA. April 2010!

Fool. You fall when you're most vulnerable. Please don't let that happen. Not now.
I wasn't always like this.

Title by Pio Gesmundo. Salamat. Good night.

And if I try to get close

2011-12-20T18:36:00.000+08:00

Will you stay with me my love for another day? Cause I don't want to be alone when I'm in this state

I messed up bigtime. People are more inclined on doing stupid things when they're depressed. Maybe that's true. Maybe that's just an excuse. It must be a trend, you see. Every time I come close to anything serious, I fuck things up. This time, it's really bad. Cause I already let myself give in once. And look where that got me. I wasn't intending on letting that happen again. I don't understand how it's so different now though.

Should I just stop overthinking things? Should I just say what's on my mind? And do as I please? Y'know, the only reason I don't is I've been trying too hard not to hurt anyone. Even though it's unavoidable. Maybe lessen the pain as much as I can.

Whatever. This weekend has been busy. Christmas shopping + barely any sleep + booze forever. Spent all my Christmas money on gifts for others rather than on things for myself. I feel so mature. It feels more fulfilling, I guess. Hohoho I must be turning good.

Friday Night, Paskuhan and Eastwood with the gang.

Saturday. Christmas shopping with Mumsy at SM Megamall. Christmas party with high school friends at Tomas Morato. Birthday party with 4th year PTs at White Plains.

Got home around 8am without my parents knowing. Sneaky, sneaky!

Sunday. Morning errands for the puppies. Christmas shopping with la soeur at Ortigas.

Christmas can never be without drama, can't it? Oh well. It's not like I'm not used to it already. *brush off

And although I still can't feel Christmas-y

Happy holidays, everybody!

4 days, 5 hours, 23 minutes to go!

Three hundred sixty five, and still

2011-12-17T11:32:00.001+08:00

One year ago.. seems like only yesterday. Was I happy or was I lonely? More importantly, have I changed or am I still that Jasmine? Who was ~~head over heels in fucking love~~. Was I really? I'd like to think I was. Just to assure myself that feeling this way after so long is normal. Although I never really wanted to admit it EVER. Cause who would ever think that this Jasmine is ever gonna feel this way. Jasmine, who gets tired of things so easily. Who is so indecisive. Whose friends can't imagine her in a serious relationship. Yes, that Jasmine. The Summer-esque girl Jasmine.

The fireworks were beautiful, it made me sad. The idea of watching Paskuhan fireworks last night.. It somehow felt unreal. Like it wasn't supposed to be that way. Like maybe I wanted to go back to how things were. I almost didn't make it in time for the fireworks. It didn't bother me. Cause on my way, I was already feeling sick to the stomach thinking it's not the same. It never will be. I can still remember how everything happened 365 days ago. The plimsolls, maroon like my planner. Everyone's attention drawn on the pretty lights scrawled up on the sky. Aware of your presence beside me.

I always said I never wanted you gone. Well, where are you now?

Momentary happiness. Why should it come with wounds that take too long to heal? Or is it just because I can't stop myself from picking on the scabs?

No one ever thought I took things so seriously. That I'm capable of actually feeling as much emotion. I know I don't talk much. Certainly, not about this. But there's too much building up inside of me.

December 17, 2011.

Material World.

2011-12-11T14:26:00.001+08:00

And I am a material girl.

Hence, le wishlist:

Un. CoverGirl Outlast lipstain

Deux. DAS
03, 07,14!, 18!, 21,22!, 23!, 24 with spine heels! 28

Trois. And other pretty things. Teehee.

~~Quatre. UrbanearsBagis or Medis or Plattan~~
(In Mocca or Tomato)

Cinq. Frames
1 2 3!!!

Six. Viamonoh bags!
Favorite!!
Backpacks A B C D E F
Shoulder bags/Duffel bagsG H I J

~~Sept. Lotte Anytime Vanilla Candy~~

Huit. Books PLEASE

Neuf. The Body Shop Moonflower Mist

Dix. Brogues FOREVER. Flats shoes. Mocassins. Classic plimsolls blah blah

~~Onze. Carlisle from Trunk Show = adoooorable~~

Douze. The perfect cardigan :| sweaters and shit. BATMAN HOODIE hihi (Hi, Jvn)

Treize. iPod Nano watch strap

Quatorze. LBD
Or not. HAHAHA. Topshop

Quinze. Navel rings HOHO. And rings, in general lala

Seize. Melissa shoes hihi *flashback to first pair of brogues Summer of 2009 ♥
Hoop II in black and beige!
Hoop in red flocked and blue flocked
Hoop III in burgundy

Dix-sept. 2012 planner.
A Starbucks planner would do just like every year. However, I've been eyeing these:
Filed 2012 Planner --Favorite ♥
Lego 2012 Planner (available at Fully Booked)
Galison Fun Plan (available at NBS)
Why am I so into cutesy stuff right now? o_O

Dix-huit. Happy cream puffs hihi
Caramel cream puffs, oh so yummyyy

Dix-neuf. Violin bow. OR new violin. Or violin case.

Vingt. A much nicer Ukulele.

And idk. Hoho
Updates.

No skills

2011-12-09T14:06:00.001+08:00

Coming from a family of artists, I must have been pretty disappointing. I feel so inadequate right now hohoho

On a completely different note, I would just like to reintroduce myself after being away from blogger for way too long.

Hi, I'm Jasmine. A kitty cat who likes puppies.

No, that is not my normal face. :-)

Haha nahhh, I just wanted to share that photo. Because CQuad nights are always fun.

Ryan O'Connell, whoever you are

2011-12-09T13:17:00.001+08:00

Reblogging from Thought Catalog

The One Person You Never Really Get Over

DEC. 7, 2011 By RYAN O'CONNELL

There will always be that one person you’ll never really get over. I know, I know, Connie Chung delivering groundbreaking news over here, but it’s true. Sure, you can go days, weeks, months, years without thinking of them but the second you see their face or their name gets mentioned in passing, your stomach drops and you feel like you could puke. You’ve lost control and all of these feelings suddenly rise to the surface to say, “Sup? Have you missed us?’ You’ll hate yourself for this, for all of it. You won’t be able to recognize why this one person can still garner this type of reaction. Why is your mind punking you? It almost feels like a betrayal. You want to give your emotions a stern talking to and say, “Um, hi. I thought we were over this? So why am I getting super nervous and spazzy at the mere mention of their name? You promised me that we were over this, brain. THANKS A LOT.”

You’re not over this person because you still want to see them naked. If they wanted you at this moment, you would leave everything and come to them. It almost feels good knowing that you want someone so bad. You spend so much of your time feeling indecisive about things but this is the one thing that remains the same. It drives you insane but it also brings a certain level of comfort, doesn’t? “No matter what happens, I will always want to lie my naked body next to yours.”

You’re not over this person because they still have the ability to piss you off. A simple insensitive comment made in passing can affect you worse than an insult from your best friend. Why? Why? WHY? That’s all you ask yourself as you sit, licking your wounds. It’s important to not question this too much. It’s fruitless. It just is. Maybe one day they won’t piss you off. Maybe one day you’ll feel nothing. Hope for nothing, accept everything.

You’re not over this person because you can still remember the little details, like the way their sweat smelled (ew, make that memory go away), their favorite song at seventeen, or a day you held hands in the backseat of a car. These memories still reduce you to mush all of these years later. Can you believe it? How can some lovers evaporate the day they leave you and others stay way past their welcome? Who gets to choose who gets left behind and who gets to stick? Not you.

You’re not over this person probably because they could never love you back the way you wanted them to, the way you needed them to. They were a defective toy that couldn’t be fixed at the shop. This made you so angry and so sad and you tried just so damn hard and everyone knew it but it didn’t work. Not one bit. Because of this, your business with them will always seem unfinished. You couldn’t conquer them and seal the deal, which made getting any kind of closure difficult. Your closure needs to be done on your own. You have to accept that this person will never give you the answers you want them to.

It sucks to have this one person in your life that can derail you at a moment’s notice. But in a way, it feels good knowing that you could ever love someone so much. Or that’s what you tell yourself anyway. It doesn’t matter if something is true or not. The things we tell ourselves can become our truth.

Anyone can relate to this. ANYONE. Beauty of talking about relationships and love and all that girly stuff. People will always think they have this strong connection with whatever song or book or line or blah dee blah.

Gah, I've lost touch. I was bad before, but now.. hoho. Just wonderful.

I should be working on my lab report right now. But I got too distracted giving my blog a makeover. I will definitely blog again after next week. So many to look forward to this Christmas hols.

Oh my, has it been a year already?

2011-10-09T15:54:00.000+08:00

The finality of it kills my spirits. All of this just makes me think more about what I really want. All the doubts I've had from the start are resurfacing. So many things to think about, so little time.

This blog is nothing. Oh, private blog. I'm glad I have you. No judgments. No criticism. Just me, talking.

Elcid, where are youuuu? Hoho

Chipmunk voice since 1991

2011-10-06T04:22:00.000+08:00

Happy 20th birthday, Joyce!

My cutie pie bff ♥

4am zzz. Later.

Parting words.

2011-10-02T00:21:00.000+08:00

J: Sobrang na-ssad ako na hindi tayo masyado naging close.
B: Close naman tayo e. :-)

Last words before leaving for Canada. Although I've only known you for a short time, I can genuinely say that we miss you. Sucky, we would've been blockmates if you didn't have to move. Take care of yourself there, Rooves!

Anyway, the said photos from previous entry

My only progress after 23974283470 years. Mahehe. And it doesn't even count. Lol

And on a completely different note, here's my favorite cover of my favorite song. Sounds so much like the original, gaah. Feel good songs, please.

♥ ♥ ♥

Random.
I just learned we have a Vespa.. And another car for my sister. Why are my parents so wasteful? And yet they won't let me have my own room. Bitterness. Hoho

Will definitely be a busy week. And then, freedom.
Out. Date with Guyton and Hall tonight. And coffee with Ganong tomorrow. Player much? Hoho

Routine

2011-09-30T00:45:00.000+08:00

*kagat labi* How come I never noticed that before? Do I really?

Tired.. I really really am. Night.

Happy Like A Lemon

2011-09-29T04:32:00.001+08:00

Ohmygoooosh. I'm blogging at 4am because I miss my long curly ombre hair.

And because I just have to share that I'm having a pretty good week so far. Although there were no classes for two days (a heartfelt opposition, mind you!), there were bits that made up for it. For starters, (technically) I spent Sunday morning at Jd's with Kat and others. Tuesday, classes were cancelled. Anatomy practical exam was postponed. And then some. Let's just say I was swept off my feet by a certain 5'4 casanova. True ladies man, I can assure you. Smooth talker, he is. HAHAHAHA. Anywaaaaay Wednesday, classes were cancelled again. So went out to celebrate Katkatkat's 19th. A photo would suffice. (IT'S 4AM DAMMIT)

[Insert photo here]

Because no one has considered the anxiety I'm feeling over those controversial (NOT!) photos.

Yes, no one has taken the liberty to upload them.

Cocoa With Rock Salt And Cheese ♥
Much overrated, but who the fck cares?

4:30AM. Hoo boy.
Bonne nuit, mes amis. À demain.

Beautiful boy

2011-09-26T07:03:00.002+08:00

Thank God for private blogs. It's like my own mentos.
♥ Jasm à Manille.

Two good things about today.
Dream
and
Pottermore. HAHAHAHA I can't wait to get home later.

It's so unfair that you're so beautiful. ♥ Hahaha. And wouldn't it be much more of a comfort if I were talking about a girl?

Will miss puppy # 5. AKA Lily. (It's a sucky name, I know. But it has its meanings. Yes, plural.) See you on Christmas day! And probably on Saints' day, too.

♥♥♥♥

♥-filled blog in contrast to--Uh, nevermind. HAHAHA.

Not Applicable

2011-09-23T00:28:00.000+08:00

And just when I thought my mind was playing games with me, out comes your name. Lucky streak.

And again I say,

I like you..........................................................................r abs.
Hehe.

Because I'm craving for HOT PANDESAL. Oh snap. Hahahahahaha

*slaps self

Back to reality. I still have Physio lab and Ana lec to deal with tomorrow! So good night. Have a sweet dream (NM, 2011). HAHAHAHAHA *slaps self

Yes, I am sabaw.

PS. Oh It Is Love just played on the background. *coughcough4OTcoughcough

Hypeee

2011-09-22T02:03:00.001+08:00

And since my mind is still blank, here.

IT'S SO FLUFFY, I'M GONNA DIEEEE! IT'S SO FLUFFYYYY!
Breaks my heart to think we can't keep all of them. Just talking about it made mommy tear up. (Harhar) I would've as well if I wasn't so dead inside. (HAHAHAHA, okay not true)

CQuad! This was during the first day of RS week two weeks ago. Most enjoyable college week for us, so far. First day was just highlighted with the PT fashion show for RS meets blah blah which we all took part in--HMUA and models, and the first R&R lecture we attended. Fairly enjoyable, I guess. Then happy thursdate in the evening. Second day was Aerobics, Amazing Race, One-day fair and Agape. Lalalalalalalalala~ Dodgeball + Water balloon fight + CQuad and others (MAHEHE!!) + RAIN. So much better than last year. Last year, Kat, Jeune and I weren't able to enjoy RS week because we were obliged to practice for MMRS. My role wasn't even significant one bit, so imagine how stressful Kat and Jeune's practices were. Moving on. Third day was Variety show, Alternative class and MMRS. Ended the week by staying out with new friends until 6AM. Zzz.

Congratulations to Ems for making it into the Top 5! Proud friend hihi. She's still my bet. Nonetheless, congratulations to Mr and Ms RS from 2OT!

A blog entry, as promised.
Rusty. Been awhile.
HAHAHAHA. Shoutout to ******! (No cursing allowed bwahaha)

HYPERMUCH.

Blast from the Past

2011-09-19T08:21:00.002+08:00

I look like a high school student again. I think the hairdresser cut off around 4 inches of hair. Not only did I lose my ombre (the blondest part!!), I also lost the remaining curls in my hair. I have to live with semi-straight hair again. Oh well. I guess it's refreshing. But at the rate I get bored (especially with my hair), I'm bound to do something drastic again. Mermaid hair, you will be missed.

Shit, I'm late for class. Hoho.
And that has got to be my most cliche blog title, yet.

Why?

2011-09-08T00:57:00.003+08:00

Been eight months and I've changed my mind about you.. definitely. I think it's best to just have nothing to do with each other. And I'm sorry. Harsh? Not at all. I have to think of my condition this time. There were--no, there are too many questions left unanswered. And I've grown tired of waiting. Just like the last time. And I don't want to subject myself to that anguish again.

Like I said. I can't stand seeing you anymore.

I have to start writing about other things. Good night.
Bye.

..

And still an asshole.

2011-08-29T01:10:00.004+08:00

I hate you this much.

Refer to 12/31/10

G-D-A-E ♥

2011-08-26T19:08:00.003+08:00

I missed playing the violin. Which is reason enough why I went out this late just to get my violin restrung and tuned. Tuning is such a hassle when the knobs are all tight from not playing for a long long time. I even bought myself an auto tuner... which is pretty much a fail and waste of five hundred bucks. I might include that in my Christmas wishlist, along with a new bow and violin case.

This is my favorite of PLJ's so far. Ahh someday, I'll be able to play as well.

Vibrato practice. Finger exercises. Gaaaah~
I missed these strings. Hello to callused fingers in the morning. Ha, like I care even one bit.

Falalalala

Sold ("Benta") NAT.

2011-08-22T20:13:00.004+08:00

Wow. This is just what I needed.

Third wheel sold separately.

Credits to Victoria Herrera

I've never felt so aloooone @_@ This is new.
Ugly person. *sigh

I lost my Netter. Why don't you just kill me now? Of all books, why that? 4k, was it? FML

One Weekend

2011-08-20T03:43:00.005+08:00

Happy Thursdates on a FRIDAY! Wouldjabelieveee?

:3

Fresh from T.Morato

Wasn't the best place to be, but it's the company that matters. ♥

Oo, demure ako. *bow. Will continue tomorrow. Falala~

..
I'm enjoying webcam photos way too much. You must be sick of my face by now. Bear with me until I get bored. And until I get our DSLR back.

Chabbo baby # 5 :)

The day we made pink rubbery pancake without pancake mix.

Night out with my favorite people laterrrr. Finally.

Want to learn this. Oh, violin. How I miss you so.

World of my creation

2011-08-14T19:21:00.004+08:00

Will reward self with new episodes of Heartstrings and the 1971 version of Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory after prelims week. Favorite movie, ohyeee.

Come with me and you'll be in a world of pure imagination // Take a look and you'll see into your imagination~ Lovelovelove ♥♥♥

Tom Sturridge, you are freakishly hot. My much-preferred version of Rob Pattinson.

*drools SOOOO WATCHING Waiting For Forever. Hihi cheesy

Half-human

2011-08-13T23:33:00.006+08:00

Fact. Jasm is magical. She is half-unicorn. She is also half-lady, thus, incapable of escaping the regular phases women undergo... ugh, you know what I mean. Fck this day.

Oh, and no, it is not silver. Rar.

I will probably laugh at this in a few days or so. But right now, I'm just too slkjcmjdx.

SO ANYWAY. After class, went to Rockwell with my family. Just the usual dinner together before proceeding with our individual plans (which I do not have because I am NOT a party girl! Just clarifying). OOTD!

Pardon the crappy quality. Photo was taken with my phone camera under low lighting. My sister left our DSLR at her office so bear with this for now.

Not in the mood to put captions though. Plus, it's not a very blog-worthy outfit. So I would just like to commend my sister for making my legs look long! Teehee. Merci, ma soeur!

Update. As of 12:17AM of August 14, my mood has drastically changed. Well, what can I say? Farthest from my expectations, oh well. Ohdammmmn. Hihihihi

:3

2011-08-12T20:05:00.006+08:00

Quick blog. Before I go back to "studying".

I can do the :3 face. Teehee. I'm just not sure HOW I do it and WHEN do I actually do it.

Hehe :3

Had makeup class for AnaL awhile ago. Most exhausting lab session I can remember. Prolly cause I have a cold, and I tried to cram everything I can and explore as much cadavers as I can (uhhh, that did not sound right) in three hours. I remember sitting for like 5 minutes, and that's about all the rest I had. Oh God, please just please.... *sigh

Yesternight was sabaw. Conversation with Yods.

J: Weeeeh? She DID not blog about nail polish :( I checked out her blog.
J: :))
Y: Did not?
Y: Oo kaya?
Y: Dalawa blog nya.
J: Liiink :)
Y: [Link]
J: Oops. Why did I emphasize on DID ? :))))
Y: Di ko alam sayo.
Y: Triny ko nga sabihin e
Y: =))
J: :)))
J: Stupid. I should NOT blog anymore =))
Y: There we go =))

What the hell is wrong with me? I think I am mentally ill. First step to cure is acceptance, yay. Hoho. I think Arianne tried to arrange an appointment for me with Doc Diaz. Thanks? LOL.

Boots and boys

2011-08-11T21:26:00.006+08:00

Worked on my hair for about a month just to achieve the ombre look. Again, ombre hair is dark roots which gradually lighten up to the tips. Can be considered by some as overgrown (even, ignored, uncared-for) roots, but I just think it's just goooorjuuhzzz. And, well, convenient. Lol. Mine's not as light as I want it to be but it's good enough considering it is my first time.

So this was taken weeks before the bleaching and re-dying process. Follows is a photo taken just a few minutes ago. Pardon the quality.. And my fugly face.

*drumroll* ......

Voila! Or how Luigi would say it, "Che-nen!"

I keep talking about this. I'm such a girl. I even spent last night and this afternoon looking at shoes, clothes, hair. Too girly for my own good.

Ma'am Joice is adorable. She blogs about nail polish and makeup and her OOTD. She is Great!

Baby woof

2011-08-07T09:09:00.003+08:00

What is adorable?

Two of the five puppies playing around. Hope you don't ruin my shoes when you guys grow up. :-) I don't think we can give anyone away. We're supposed to puppy-share with the stud. But we're already too attached. (heart_break)

Sunday is my only rest day.. Oh wait. I guess that's not true.. PHYSIO LAB REPORT and ANA LEC QUIZ for tomorrow. Must get busy so I can rest at least for later.

Ash B.

2011-08-05T22:32:00.002+08:00

Quick Update

Guess who has semi-ombre hair. It's STILL not done though (even after 2387921381023 years hihi). Have to dye it an ash color tomorrow to get rid of the brassiness. Although I can't go too light 'cause of school, now I know I can do it this sembreak as in real ombre. Falala~

Okay time to study again.... Zzzz..

Han. Ichi. Un.

2011-08-03T22:00:00.005+08:00

I don't have new entries because I do not have anything to blog about.

I drew a photo of my current crush though.

Yes, that's me next to him in my PT lab uniform.

Oh, Neil Etheridge ♥ Why must you be so... uhh.. yummy? HAHAHAHA (TLE term, I'm sorry.)

Yoooong

2011-07-24T20:37:00.007+08:00

Good lighting at Henri Calayag. The sister and I got bored waiting for Mumsy's semi-ombre hair to be finished after we had our nails done. Follows is few of the many photos. Oh, ennui.

Operation Ombre hair postponed AGAIN. Dammit. So close. NEXT WEEK (if not busy) fo'shooo.

Paranormal Activity 3. Any thoughts?
Uh... nevermind.

Heartstrings. Lalala~

To Don Julio

2011-07-24T11:19:00.004+08:00

I will do better. I promise.

RIP, Amy Winehouse.
As this ache in my chest, as my day is done now. The dark covers me and I cannot run now.

RIP, 91 casualties of the Norway shooting-bombing.

RIP, dear grades.
You will be revived.

Yay, new webcam. Testing.. testing..

OOTD
Studded combat boots -THRIFTED!!!

[Insert puppy name here]

She's so prettyyy, envyyyy.

Girl bonding mom and sister. Ombre hair coming VERY soon hihihi. OTW to The Residences soon.

THE BABIES.

Wild child

2011-07-15T20:32:00.013+08:00

Contrary to what others believe and what others say about me behind my back, I am not wild. Although the behind my back part's pretty annoying, it's funny I come off as something so unlike me--as in, total opposite of me. I'm about as wild as I am tall. I am monotone, some may say. HAHAHA. I honestly want to ignore this whole thing. It's not that I'm thinking too much. I just don't appreciate being talked about that way by people who barely know me. And this isn't even the first time this happened. Makes me feel like something's really wrong with me. Am I wild and just don't know it? HAHHAHAHHA naaaah, It's gotta be the hair. HAHAHA

Okay, moving on. It's my mom's birthday! I love you, mumsy! Thank you for the love, life and your awesome genes. I have half of your nose, and I'm proud of it! Bwahahaha

--Poladroid is addictive, I swear. Me wants a Polaroid cameraaaa! One that's working. We have a vintage one at home, but it's merely for display since it hasn't worked since Idontevenknowwhen.

Addictive, zzzzzz. Buy me a Polaroid and we'll talk. HAHA

Jasmine, The Fattie.

2011-07-13T19:53:00.005+08:00

I GOT SO FAT. I swear.

I browsed through old high school photos. I saw how fit I used to be. I MISS SWIMMING. I want (pseudo)abs again. Even my skin has changed. I used to be blemish-free. Now I'm all imperfections. I wasn't even as tanned then.

Weird face, but that's not the point! Skiiin :(

(Pseudo)abs from cheerdance and swimteam. And even morning workouts with Pate and Alex that summer.

THIIIIIIIIIIN

I think I need to start taking care of myself again.
I NEED THE POOOOL:(

Nv

2011-07-10T00:58:00.002+08:00

It's gonna be hell next week. First shifting exams. Please pray for us, CRS students.

Photo from Koj Lozada.

Hungupzfudge.

Zip

2011-06-30T08:13:00.003+08:00

I promise I'll blog more. Hopefully, every other day.

You left me hanging. -I heard a lot of that this semester. Funny, I'm too slow.

Stuck.

2011-06-29T19:20:00.004+08:00

You still owe me an explanation. It still pisses me off when I think about it. And it pisses me off even more that I still think about it. Why couldn't you just talk to me then? I just realized now how angry I am. I was too hurt to recognize the resentment I felt. And it just dawned on me now that you weren't worth all of it. Stupid stupid.

Feels like an overdue wake up call.

Except this doesn't even change anything. Because it's still happening. And I can't change that. Or even avoid it.

Sobrang mali lang ng ginawa mo..
mzcklc,okcsdjfncimuincjhjxlsiemox

Hi, this entry is emo. /wrist --> See.

Athazagoraphobia

2011-06-25T14:20:00.002+08:00

Today, I burst into tears.

Haha. Weird. I was too happy yesterday, so this is happening to me now. Haha kidd. So many perfect people in the world. Nakaka-insecure.

Did you know that within five minutes of waking up, you forget 50% of your dreams? And in ten minutes, 90% of your dreams. Screw this. I wish I just forgot the whole of it.

But whatever, I just have to move like jagger.
Zzz, I feel bad right now.....

Bang~

2011-06-24T22:45:00.008+08:00

I can't get over today. Watched Showtime live with high school friends. Lunch at Gerry's Grill, Rockband at Bea's place, then Serenitea.

Tweeeeet.

DM. (Direct message hihihihihi) Twitterpated lalala

Despite the rain and flood and shizz, wonderful wonderful wonderful day.
Surreal -EDV.

My Trending topics of the day.
#sanawalangpasokbukas #ryanbang #ukulele

HAHAHAHAHA

Atleast, I finished this sentence.

2011-06-22T00:07:00.002+08:00

Ombre hair operation numero un, semi-fail. Tips aren't light enough. But that just means that it's semi-successful as well. HAHAHAHA. They're light enough for ombre hair operation numero deux. I shall bleach themz dark tips. Next month! (Yes, I need to wait a whole friggin' month) Sooo determined to perfect this. My cousin achieved the look that I wanted. Envyyyy. Fo'sho, I will do thizzz. Not giving up. Hahaha!

Nights are always sabaw nowadays with the constant need to review and review each night. I don't know if what I just wrote is correct, but whatever. A display of sabaw-ness was exhibited just the other night. As usual, it involves Elcidzzzzzzzzzzzz. Chatting in Yahoo, Skype, and both Facebook chat and comments. Trying to confu--

Zzzzzzzzzzz. I got exhausted in the middle of a sentence.

Yay, letterman jackets for CQuad. Night.

Nerd

2011-06-20T21:14:00.004+08:00

J: An effect of heat or cold is analgesia. Pag in-ice pack ko ba ang heart ko, mababawasan ang pain?
V: Mas gugustuhin mo bang maging cold?
Kung pareho lang naman ang effect neto pag ginamitan mo ng warmth ng pagmamahal?

Shit. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

*hinga

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Daddy-O.

2011-06-19T12:08:00.010+08:00

Ehhh. Maybe it is a tad too obvious that I'm enjoying THE sweater too much. Well, it is a big improvement compared to Fontana 013010. Who wouldn't?

Bwahaha. This moment is defined as progress times 875394892384209834084. Trololo

Errrrrrrrrrrrrrrhihi

#happyfathersday to my awesome dad!

J'adore mon père. Un modèle pour moi.
Did I say that correctly? Oh wellllll

Brainwaveszz~~~~

2011-06-12T23:14:00.008+08:00

Someone purchased the Miracle Blade 3 knife set. HAHA Now, I can play Veggie Samurai in real life. How awesome is that?

Yay, Jasm's going to be an aunt. Due first week of July! Falalalala. Guess who's pregnant. HAHAHAHA. How awesome is that?

Hello, I'm eighteen.

CANDLE. My croquembouche didn't make it. Had just one creampuff. Daaaamn.

Blurry, I know. But I love it all the same. With Daddy-O

Tinkerbell :) Thank you, for the surprise everything.

How awesome is that?

Emo plankton.

2011-06-11T19:01:00.004+08:00

I just realized where I got the *pats heart twice gesture from. Happy memory. Sad thing is that it's just a memory. I think I need closure. As in, seriously. I just want to know what really happened. The feeling for me is just agonizing. I'm always on the hook. It sucks. December. January. February. Same shit.

I had a whole entry written on my mind. Now in front of the screen, I'm blank.

Archive-ing. This just shows how everything is in the past. And I should just Delete All. Need this. Goodbye. Lala.

Elcid Villasanta: kaya nga
Elcid Villasanta: you stop being sad and be awesome
Elcid Villasanta: B-)
Elcid Villasanta: ganyan tayo
Elcid Villasanta: line nya din un eh

Thank you, badminton player-slash-natural dancer-slash-incest brothaah (not OUR mom!) Bwahaha.

Jack Sparrow turns blah blah

2011-06-09T17:09:00.006+08:00

Can not wait for HP7 part 2. I cried so much while reading it. Partly because it's the end of a truly awesome series. Daaang. Must watch part 1 before July 15!

Did not watch the trailer. Might be a spoiler. Although I already know what's going to happen. *cry cry
Oh, Rupert Grint. Lala. Excited much.

Tumblr photo
PS. Happy birthday, Johnny Depp.
And sister dearest.

Into Your Imagination

2011-06-07T19:13:00.002+08:00

One of my favorite songs from my favorite movie.

*shivers

Sorry, Johnny Depp. But Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory was so much better than your (newer) version of the movie. You gots tuh watch it.

And listen to Maroon 5's cover of Pure Imagination. Been around for a longer time. Lovely lovely. But Glee's version just makes my skin tingle and my hair stand on end.

Banana hat.

2011-06-06T11:50:00.004+08:00

3PTB Revised schedule

Huhu, saturdays.

Last days of my vacation, and all I'm doing is watching EpicMealTime. And it. Is. Epic. MEAAAAT.

Something strange happened. I kinda like it. Hihi

Practing the "Don't talk to me, I am an angry bird" look that I used back in first year. Not that I need practice bwahaha.

Thank you, Elziiiddd!

Super party. ♥

2011-06-05T09:25:00.002+08:00

Thank you for the surprise everything! Awesome night with my super friends. Loooove my family like jhfkzshfjsfl. :)

Thankyouvermuchgoodbye.

2011-06-04T01:59:00.003+08:00

2:00AM

SANA JOKE LANG TALAGA LAHAT NG 'TO.
Small part of me's still hoping.

Red and puffy eyes, daaang.
Wala ako sa mood mag-party, but whatever.

Depth.

2011-06-03T00:43:00.003+08:00

Beautiful. This. Is music.

I can feel the sorrow.

February.

2011-06-02T22:35:00.004+08:00

Yuck. Two words. NOT INTERESTED.
Dude, please. Nooo. Kay? I have the worst luck ever. Fml. Ayoko naaa.

Let me rant.

I know I don't have the right to be as upset or as disappointed as I am right now. Although I can't help but feel that way. I just thought.. I guess I thought wrong again. But it's natural for me to get my hopes up, with all there was before. But yeah, that was before. It just started to sink in right at that moment. I seem to have a knack for fooling myself.

HAHA fuck. //////////

Think happy thoughts. Kimchikimchikimchi.

Watched Perfume: The Story of a Murderer. Awesoooome.

Almost Legal.

2011-05-31T18:02:00.003+08:00

Eighteenth wishlist.

UN. Jeffrey Campbell
Lita
Lita Exotic
Lita Fab
99
99 Tie
Foxy
Foxy Fab
Zag
Skate
Tick
Tick Paint
El Carmen

*Any color or pattern will do. HAHAHA!
Simple girl with simple tastes.

DEUX. Brogues. Oxfords.
Beige. Brown and white.

TROIS. Girly flats. HAHAHA!
i.e. Lacy Topshop flats, T-bar flats

QUATRE. Max Fleischer Color Classics DVD!

CINQ. Urbanears Plattan
Color: Wine or Tomato

SIX. Backpacks? HAHAHA I don't know.

SEPT. iWatchz.
Diff colors!

HUIT. Truffettes de France. Original flavor.

NEUF. Trip to Korea.

DIX. Body shop Moonflower Mist (phased out////)

ONZE. Ringzzz.

DOUZE. New violin HAHAHAHA

TREIZE. Books. Lalalala.

... Not in the mood to make a wishlist, actually. HAHA! Shall update when I feel like it.

Fat kid ♥

2011-05-31T16:48:00.003+08:00

Say hello to my friend, Andrew.

*evil laugh

TIRED. CAN'T SLEEP HUHU.

P.S. I got fat. See here.

Oh noezz.

webcamphotosshizz

TGIF

2011-05-27T16:05:00.006+08:00

I spent the whole trip home putting together a blog entry in my mind, trying to remember the bits of last night that I've forgotten and contemplating how the fuck everything happened. Headache. The drunkenness of the whole night. Daaaang. Forever and ever. What happens in Fontana stays in Fontana. What a night.

Cue Music. Last Friday Night. Yeah, we danced on table tops. And we took too many shots. Think we kissed, but I forgot. Last Friday night.

Moving on. Pansol was a lot different. It was much more... Familiar. Comfortable. Less alcohol consumption, more food. HAHA. Photos here once they're uploaded on Facebook.

TWEEEET. Follow moi.

LOVE THIS SONG.

Hey baby, I don't wanna be your Superman. I just wanna be your man, and I'll be super, baby. You'll be standing in the sunshine. I'll be standing right here in the rain. You save me and I will save the day.

Bring it on, Third Year.

2011-05-25T20:41:00.003+08:00

Hello, I'm in 3PTB. Check out my sched.

Saturdaaaays huhuhu.

... Exhausted. Bye.

Literary bucketlist SOON.

Pixie.

2011-05-23T20:14:00.005+08:00

I wonder how gruesome The Games would be in the movies. Or how good-looking Gale would be. Straight black hair, olive skin, gray eyes.

Refresh refresh

Lady GaGa is oonly 5'1" without her towering heels. I recently came to know about the Tinkerbell Syndrome through Chictopia. Click. Natalie Portman, Olsen Twins, Mila Kunis, Eva Longoria, Nicole Richie. ♡ Yay, I'm a pixie.

It's been months and my blog title reads "Curiouser and curioser." Typo right in front of my eyes and I didn't even notice. Wth.

Everyday I'm shufflin'

2011-05-23T18:36:00.005+08:00

What do the keys of your keyboard sound like when you type? Click? Tik? Tak? Random thought.

Refresh. Still waiting for my schedule on mySchedule. Refresh. Refresh. If I get PTA, I get Fridays and Sundays off. PTB, just Sundays off. And PTC, Thursdays and Sundays off. Refresh/

My laptop sucks. It's ugly. It runs hot. Its battery does not work. So it's more like a desktop, except it only has 150GB space for its hard drive. It shuts down when it wants to. And it seems to like doing so especially in the middle of a movie. The earphone socket is broken, and any attempt to use it will disable the use of the speakers unless you restart it. When you turn it on, it shuts off after 3 seconds for 2 seconds, then turns on again. Once it's off, you have to wait like around an hour before it can turn on again. There's huge black stain on the track pad. It scratches easily and attracts fingerprints easily. SLOW. UGLY. And pretty cheap for a notebook. I would've preferred a netbook with better specs. It's the way it is now prolly because I'm lousy when taking care of gadgets. At first, I'm all cautious and caring, then it's old news. It's this obsessive thing to always have something new. Blame media. Haha. I ~~need~~want a new one.

Sino ang gusto niyong makatuluyan ni Katniss Everdeen?
A. Gale Hawthorne
B. Peeta Mellark
C. Piolo Pascual
D. AJ Perez

A question posed for us by P.Corpuz on corpuzxx. And my ultimate bias is Gale Hawthorne. I am only on part three of the second book and it already seems like all hope is lost. But still, a lot can happen in 286 pages and I keep my fingers crossed.

I am six PAGE UPS away from finishing your entries, btw.

Anyway, before the summer ends, here is the ultimate ultimate party song for Summer `11. Oh, how I miss my friends. Went through a semi-antisocial stage for awhile with just me and my books and my downloads. Hoho I'm back. (And planning.)

Pizza, pasta, drinks, and few of my favorite friends. June 4, loves.

Leave Me Alone phase

2011-05-20T22:34:00.004+08:00

Summer Book List Update:

~~Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone (1)~~
~~Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban (3)~~
~~Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (4)~~
~~Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix (5)~~
~~Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince (6)~~
~~Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollow (7)~~
Edgar Allan Poe short stories
~~Looking For Alaska~~
~~The Hunger Games (1)~~
Catching Fire (2)
Mockingjay (3)
Finding Neverland
Servant of the Bones
The Wind-Up Bird Chronicles

I must to finish at least 3 more books. Once school starts, I don't think I'll enjoy reading as much. Oh, third year. Be good to me.

Love and Responsibility.

2011-05-16T19:15:00.003+08:00

R.I.P Baby Chichi. I learned a lot in the short time we had together.
I'm sorry, Chichi's mom. We tried, I promise.
Farewell.

Let's not talk about this anymore.

Brief update.

2011-05-15T23:46:00.003+08:00

Mindoro (again) yesterday. Second time this summer. Tanner and tanner and tanner.

Amused self by watching classic cartoons. Fleischer animation, FTW.
All's fair at the fair. With mother and father and sister and brother and everyone there... Lala...

Night.

2011-05-11T19:02:00.002+08:00

Guys will never understand split ends. Or heels. Or haircuts that seem like nothing's changed. Or growing your fringe.

Cheers to Helga Weber and her half-shaved head. The courage it must have taken her. And to actually pull it off, amazing.

Beastly.

2011-05-08T15:13:00.002+08:00

Alex Pettyfer. =p~

'Nuff said.

Porky ♥

2011-05-05T16:09:00.004+08:00

Watched The Little Rascals. Waaa, THEY ARE SO FREAKIN' ADORABLEEE!! Hihihihi

Porky is my absolute favoriiiite. So's Buckwheat. They're like the bestest friends. So cute!

Such a cutie pieee ♥♥♥♥♥

-Movie marathoooon

Castles and Rainbows and Unicorns

2011-05-02T22:20:00.004+08:00

I want to be a princess. Huhu.

Fairytale weekend.

Viva La Jeffrey!

2011-04-30T21:40:00.006+08:00

I'm still so exhausted from all that's happened this week. I badly need sleep. It is still a shame however that I had to miss tonight's event. Reason I'd rather keep hush hush about. Something came up. Dazzit.

Yesterday night was quite a surprise. And not just for me. We were obviously expecting a different scene. We had enough sense to leave anyways. Dolce was much more fun although it came to an abrupt stop. I'd rather not get into details here.

Aaah. Sleep. Zzzzz.

Jeffrey Campbell shoes are orgasmic. Been enamored for the longest time. ♡ Yes, it's time to invest.
--Good thing or bad thing? I don't know anymore. But I really don't care as of the moment.

Black and yellow

2011-04-28T22:26:00.006+08:00

My friend told me Friendster is closing down. Oh, memories. Wahahaha. Link. Nene photos, btw.

..
Dinner and Manor with my loves yesternight. Then of course, afterparty at my place.

Dead tired.

May Friday pa. Tapos Saturday. OMG, can I survive this week?

Seventeen forever.

2011-04-24T20:39:00.004+08:00

I'm having a bad reaction to henna tattoo. Not that I didn't anticipate it. I always do ever since I got my batman henna. It stayed on my skin for years, unlike the usual 2 or 3 weeks. Couldn't help not getting one reminiscent to Chanel temporary tattoos, though. Spring-Summer 2010, was it?

Minus the beady details, daaaamn.

Oceana this Holy Week as usual.

I don't want to turn eighteen anymoreeee.

Almonds

2011-04-20T02:13:00.003+08:00

And still everytime. I can't help but ask myself. Why can't I ever be good enough for anyone? #128√e980

Finished off a pint of vanilla ice cream at 2 in the morning. Waaah, what's wrong with me?

Shone.

2011-04-19T16:36:00.004+08:00

Watched "A Crazy Litte Thing Called Love". My friends and my sister's friends have been recommending it since last month. Adorable movie. (Although I didn't like the ending.) Pimchanok Lerwisetpibol's cute. But Mario Maurer, just gorjuuuuhzzzzzz. I just wish his voice wasn't so annoying. Hoho

TDF smile asdfghjkl;

Ice cream truck.

2011-04-18T11:51:00.004+08:00

I want to be an ice cream. Better yet, an ice cream truck. This is a slightly dangerous phase for me. Hahaha. Every freakin' summer. Hoho

Yes, I am in my FG mode. It's gonna take awhile to recover. And I'm not even sure if I want to.

*slap slap Time's-a-wasting. Laterrrrrr

Back in Shutdown II

2011-04-17T19:51:00.005+08:00

Parang dati lang..

Fourth year high school, was it?

RIP, AJ Perez.

P.S. I used to have a crush on you. Nothing major.

And yes, I am perfectly aware that my face is... nevermind.

Colds damn

2011-04-12T21:52:00.000+08:00

Hello, I'm sick. Good night.

Must watch Gossip Girl promo. See link.
The Prince, The Pauper or The Dark Knight? Excited much. Final 5 episodes of the season. Gaaah. Can't wait!

Update. 041311 22:50
Hello, I'm still sick. Good night again. ///////

Hey, you come here open?

2011-04-11T20:52:00.008+08:00

NAME: Jasmine Charmaine D. Macaranas
AGE : 17
BIRTHDATE: June 8, 1993
PRESENT ADDRESS: Araneta Subdivision, QC

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 92 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

Tagged by the lovely ladies Bianca C and Pamela C.

~~(To do this, go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, copy and paste this note, erase my answers and enter your own, tag people [in the right hand corner of the app then click publish.)~~

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. last beverage = H2O
2. last phone call = Too tamad to get my phoneee
3. last text message = See above.
4. last song you listened to = Katy Perry's Self-Inflicted
5. last time you cried = Uhh. I watched Remember Me. Hihi

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice = .....
7. been cheated on = ......
8. kissed someone & regretted it = .....
9. lost someone special = .....
10. been depressed = .....
11. been drunk and threw up = .....

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Teal
13. White
14. Red

LAST YEAR (2010), HAVE YOU:
15. Made a new friend = Yesss.
16. Fallen out of love = Did I even fall in love? Loljk. No.
17. Laughed until you cried = Yeap.
18. Met someone who changed you = Hmm. I think so, yeah.
19. Found out who your true friends were = Always knew. Lalala. But whatever, yeahh.
20. Found out someone was talking about you = Uh yes
21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list = Hahahaha secret.

GENERAL:
22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life = Uh like more than three-fourths? Dunno
24. Do you have any pets = Yessssss
25. Do you want to change your name = Not really. But Georgia would be a nice name. Or Georgina. Whichever hahahaha
26. What did you do for your last birthday = Bum mode. Didn't even celebrate.
27. What time did you wake up today = Quite early. Around 9, I think.
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = Reading. I live a pretty boring life, see.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = Zambales? Boracay too, I guess. Weird.
30. Last time you saw your Mother = Ten minutes ago?
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = Bad habits. Ugh.
32. What are you listening to right now = Chabbo barking
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? = Yesss.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now = Freakin' sore throat.
35. Most visited webpage = Blogger.com
37. Nickname = Jas
38. Relationship Status = Self-supporting. Hoho
39. Zodiac sign = Gemini
40. He or She = It?
41. Elementary = IHMC (QC)
42. High School = SPUQC
43. College = UST
44. Hair color = Dyed it something auburn months ago
45. Long or short = Long
46. Height = Secret
47. Do you have a crush on someone? = No. Proud to say. HAHAHAHA.
48. What do you like about yourself? = Physically, my cheekbones. Bow. [insert straight face here]
49. Piercings = Six
50. Tattoos = Maybe. Hahaha what an answer
51. Righty or lefty= Rightyy

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery = None yet
53. First piercing = When I was still a kidddd.
54. First best friend = Coleen Coronacion. :)
55. First sport you joined = Swimming
56. First vacation = As if I remember
58. First pair of trainers = No idea

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating = x
60. Drinking = x
61. I'm about to = clean my room? Ughhhhhhhh.
62. Listening to = Weezer's Say It Aint So
63. Waiting for = yo momma. Whuuut? Sabaw much.

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids? = Hmm?
65. Get Married? = Why not?
66. Career? = ~~Model.~~ HAHAHAJK PT?:>

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes = Lips
68. Hugs or kisses= Hugs!!
69. Shorter or taller = Taller
70. Older or Younger = Older
71. Romantic or spontaneous = Spontaneous
72. Nice stomach or nice arms = Nice arms, oohlala
73. Sensitive or loud = Sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship = Relationship, duh.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant = Hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger = HAHAHAHAHA//
77. Drank hard liquor = Yuh
78. Lost glasses/contacts = ////////
80. Broke someone's heart = :| Hope not.
81. Had your own heart broken = Uhh.
82. Been arrested = Almost. HAHAHAHA (Hellos to Chua, Yna, Papao, Cisco)
83. Turned someone down = Um um.
84. Cried when someone died = Yeeeeap
85. Fallen for a friend = LOL

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself = Eh?
87. Miracles = Sure.
88. Love at first sight = Wtf, no.
89. Heaven = Yiz.
90. Santa Claus = Nope.
91. Kiss on the first date = No, please.
92. Angels = Sure.

Too tamad. I tag whoever reads :D hihi

-Sorry 'bout the title. HAHAHAHAHA

My skin is a mess right now. huhuhuhuhu why, please? :(

White and Navy Blue

2011-04-11T12:32:00.011+08:00

My mom told me this morning, "Tumataba face mo. Bagay sa'yo." Lalala. I've been eating so well the past four days. Buffet after buffet. Gaaaah, the heavens are rewarding me for being such a homebody first week of summer vacation.

I'll be so fat come June you went recognize me. Hoho

So Thursday-Friday (April 7 and 8) last week, I was in Bataan with my blockmates. Spent the night at Jose's place. Saying that the food was [insert choir of angels here] is an understatement. Sugpo, inihaw na bangus, dinuguan, alimango, taro ice cream, everything was delectable. Although the company, much better. I looooove 2PTB-1st sem foreverrrrr. Would've liked it even more if the others were there.

Outside Arriba's place bwahaha

Taro-flavored ice cream. Best ice cream ever.

Mt. Samat

At ang tunay na illuminati: Warning! This IMAGE contains graphic content that some viewers may find disturbing. View at your own risk.

Then Tagaytay Saturday-Sunday (April 9-10). With parents, this time. No photos though. Ate like a king.

And that's that.

P.S. Say hello to my new white and navy blue brogues. *With song playing in bg: "I just can't get enough! I just can't get enough!"

DT

2011-04-11T01:10:00.002+08:00

Bataan was fun. Tagaytay was fun.

Too tired....

Labyrinth

2011-04-05T19:04:00.004+08:00

I slept with John Green last night, and I am very satisfied. Hoho. Looking For Alaska is definitely a good read. I am a very slow reader, yet I finished it this morning. Highly recommend it. Will start with Alice's Adventure In Wonderland until I find something else better to read. I somehow find it pointless to read. Witty, yes. But nonsensical.

My body is aching as if it's the start of cheerdance season. With less bruises, of course. But the same pain, ouch. Seems my dad has it stuck in his mind that I'm in the same condition I used to be. Can't even freakin' walk straight. But oh well, it's a start. Beach body back, pleaze.

Later. Hercules on Disney. Tralala. I am such a kid.

Flat, glossy, iridescent.

2011-04-04T21:14:00.011+08:00

I don't understand how this happened. *Gawks* Must be some kind of error. No other explanation.

95 views in an hour. Impossible. No doubt.

Moving on. I watched Flipped again. It's such an adorable movie. Callan McAuliffe is such a cutie. And Madeline Carroll is just gorgeous. I think I might have a girl crush on her. Well, who wouldn't? (And I loooove her hair.)

Can you blame me?

See, that is one fiiine sixteen-year-old.

Hoho so cuuuutteee.
Hello, Pam. Watch Flipped. :-bd

Anyway. I found myself annoyed at someone I haven't even met yet. Does the initials JP ring a bell? I discovered she's in the same college as my sister. And I found myself checking out her tumblr. Stalker much? No, not really. Just plain curious about, as I may quote a certain Mentos, her so-called "beauty". Considering it's the first time I saw her, I immediately labeled her as pretentious and overrated. So yeah, point is why do people get easily swayed by trash-talk and the like? I'm not an exception, obviously. But I'm learning to be a nicer person, less judgmental and all that crap. I've been a victim and I know how it feels. Just awful.

A better-written blog entry next time. Hey, at least I'm trying again. Falala.

P.S. Let me barf. I hate overly cheesy.

Great Perhaps

2011-04-04T14:43:00.002+08:00

Indulging self in John Green's Looking For Alaska. Ah, the feeling is so familiar. Why didn't think of this to begin with?

My summer plans are so messed-up. And I actually don't have a care in the world. Hohoho. Coron or Bataan? Seems like an obvious choice, but nooooo. Might go to Boracay, might not. Zambales? I don't know either. Pansol, no definite day. Woooow. The only trip I'm sure of is Mindoro. Which is like an annual thing already. Biannual, even.

I am so craving for vanilla ice cream right now.

Sleeping with John Green tonight. Bwahaha

SFI

2011-04-03T21:50:00.004+08:00

RF. I love shoes. Click link
Wants prairie boots, wedge shoes, brogues, blah blah blah.

Love this. Yummeehhh.

Ichigo shoes, so very affordable. Photo from DE.

Bring me to

Oh, why must I be away on these days?

Hummmn.

2011-04-03T12:25:00.003+08:00

There's nothing to blog about because nothing's happening.

This is so cute. Stop motion.

Life is gooood.

4AM screenshot.

2011-04-02T04:38:00.003+08:00

Yes, it's that time of the year again.

New layout. Still working on it.

Cap pas cap?

2011-04-01T20:22:00.003+08:00

Late post. Blame our bitchy router.
Day Thirty. Three life lessons you’ve learned so far.
1. Happiness is a choice.
2. Regret makes you old and bitterness poisons those around you. OTH days. Lala.
3. Uhh, just pray alot.

Day Thirty One. Three ways you bid farewell.
1. "Booiiyyye booiiyyeee"
2. *smiles* Cause really, I dont like goodbyes.
3. I just don't. ~~I can be mean like that.~~ No, just a coward. Daaym.

IMISSYOU. Hoho. Fools day today.
February, Lucky. March, If It Kills Me.

V

2011-03-31T12:22:00.004+08:00

Internet fail at its best. Pff, hiatus? Undetermined.
And no globe phone. I left it at Rockwell last day of school and I'm too tamad to get it.
Tamad. Bored. And broke. Summer 2011, ftw. :|

Dead kid. Drowning self in chocolates, coffee beans and honey tea.

Practice practice practice. Cause this is the only time I'll get.

Far from blog-worthy.

2011-03-29T20:56:00.003+08:00

Day Twenty Nine. Three things that you look for in a partner.
1-3. Isa lang naman gusto ko e. Yung mamahalin ako.

WHUUUT. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA sorry that was like.. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

I dont know what to say.
Too sabaw. This is one depressing night.

Wants an ice cream truck.

Twenty Eighth.

2011-03-28T18:14:00.003+08:00

Day Twenty Eight. Three things you like about yourself.
1. Cheekbones
2. Kickass family. Tralala.
3. Love-hate that I can eat as much as I like and not get TOO fat. Lalala.

Mezza Strip with Jeanne. So glad it's near.

Ideal summer plans. MWF, swim. TTh, advanced PT classes. Every night, violin practice. Weekends, whatever.

New blog song. Thank you, Papao. Hope it works!

I love my batchmates. Praying for those with remeds. Kaya yan, guys!

.. A small part of me feels betrayed. Oh wait, no. A whole lot of me feels betrayed. Sad face here.

2011-03-27T18:53:00.002+08:00

Day Twenty Seven. Three crazy things you wouldn't mind doing.
1. Fall in love.
2. Join PAG
3. EpicMealNight
--update 070211

Love in.

2011-03-27T01:07:00.005+08:00

Sana pag gising ko, normal na ulet skin ko. :(

If you can change just one thing in your life overnight, what would that be? How different would your life be then?

Just thinking about the sun, the waves, the sand, the water (chlorine, even)--anything about summer--makes me feel all giddy inside. ♥

Oh summer, please be this kickass.

Summer goal: Keep healthy. Lalalala.

I have my alone forever buddies. Weird.

312-312-30123012-130-1

2011-03-26T10:44:00.004+08:00

Day Twenty Six. Three types of deserts you enjoy.
1. Anything with vanilla ice cream
2. Crepe (of course, with vanilla ice cream)
3. Panna cotta

Practiced playing last night. The virus hit me. Hihihi, oh so manly. HAHA
This is a sabaw post.

Cruise into this

2011-03-25T21:07:00.003+08:00

Day Twenty Five. Three favorite books.
1. Erich Segal's Love Story
2. HP books. I just appreciated them recently when I started to read again.
3. Still deciding. Teehee

When I woke up today, I felt my heart do little flips. Best I've felt in awhile. Summer does that to me. Bring on the unbearable heat. Lalalala

Yesterday was :) One for the whole vacation.

I will miss this. Reshuffled again. Also would've wanted a class photo with 2PTB 1st sem. Oh well, there's still Bataan. Hihi.

Hetarhahaha

2011-03-24T06:21:00.003+08:00

Day Twenty Four. Three things you do before you go to bed.
1. Moisturize
2. Pray
3. Read

Last day of exams later. Last day as a second year student. Omg.
Then next year,

Winging it.

23.

2011-03-23T07:42:00.002+08:00

Internet at home for a change. Yaaay.

Day Twenty Three. Three places you want to visit.
1. Australia
2. Paris
3. Korea

Finding self. HAHA what an excuse.

Involuntary hiatus.

2011-03-22T18:51:00.004+08:00

I will never leave the comforts of Thousand Teas, Mezza again. I love it here. Yummy milk tea + free wifi.

Day Twenty One. Three of your guilty pleasures.
1. Chocolates with nuts, please. Used to not like 'em. Now I'm always craving. Daaaaym.
2. Clothes. Shoes. I. Am. So. Broke.
3. Although I already am so tan, I love the feel of the sun on my skin. Particularly, my back. HAHA. ///// So daaaark daaamn.

Day Twenty Two. Three things you are afraid of.
1. Getting extremely fat. Sorry, but it's goodbye to all my clothes.
2. Major pimple breakout.
-Superficial much. Sorry. So to make up for the first two..
3. Losing my family. My forever forever love.

Two more school days left. Na-summer mode ako. Private joke. Shout outs to Chua, Cisco and Kat.

Physics, done. Chem, over. PT lecture tomorrow. Hetar Thursday. PT lab pracs on Thursday, as well. Last exam of the school year. Wish me luck!

And I've got none left.

2011-03-20T10:40:00.005+08:00

I don't understand why the internet is suddenly such a pain. My entries are always late.

Day Nineteen. Three home-cooked meals you enjoy.
1. Dad's Christmas steak
2. Lola's LP fried chicken
3. Mom's salmon

Day Twenty. Three things the world would be better without.
1. Split ends
2. Corruption
3. Rebecca Black's song Friday. Oops

@-)

FML. Haha, fck the timing.

Miss the piemaker.

2011-03-18T22:49:00.004+08:00

Day Eighteen. Three favorite TV shows.
Although I don't watch television anymore.
1. Glee
2. Gossip Girl
3. Pushing Daisies :(

Exam weekend. Must get busy.

Can't study at home. Rar
I love my friends. Just saying. Heehee

Caysubic, Cavite. Love love love.